The most anticipated and probably one of my favorite moments of the day had to be our first look.
Our photographers had decided to use a shaded area right next to Antrim’s pool. The large oak tree and tall shrubs made the location really whimsical and romantic. We were completely secluded from everyone else.
Once our photographers had Mr. A in place, Cicely grabbed me and brought me outside.
Mr. A waited patiently with our second photographer, Jason, and our videographer as I made my way down the stone filled pathway.
Once I could see the back of Mr. A, my heart started to beat controllably. It was a crazy rush of adrenaline and excitement mixed with fear and anticipation. I couldn’t wait to see Mr. A (it had been almost 16 hours since I last saw him, which is a long time for people who live, work and commute together). At the same time, I was so nervous that he wouldn’t like what he saw (it’s one of those girl things you never seem to grow out of).
Judging by the pictures, Mr. A was just as excited and nervous.
As my footsteps grew closer, he couldn’t hold it in anymore. I know he tried really, really hard to keep his composure but somehow hearing my heels get closer and closer just really cemented the moment for him.
When I finally reached him (after what seemed like a lifetime), I smiled quite possibly the biggest smile of my entire life. I was just so, so happy to see him.
But when I got there, I could hear him crying and it made me totally breakdown.
I know, they are embarrassing, ugly cry pictures but I love them. They seem to perfectly capture everything we were feeling. Just how happy and in love we were (and still are). The last one is one of my favorites. We are both trying so hard not to cry.
Then we tried to pull ourselves together. You know I had to do some deep breathing exercises again. It’s really how I kept myself from becoming a blubbering mess.
As I wiped my eyes, I encouraged Mr. A to use the handkerchief that I gifted him as a part of his wedding day card. And wouldn’t you know that he and the boys were so behind that he didn’t even open his card. Oh boys. So much for my sweet gift. Instead of using my handcrafted hankie, Mr. A pulled out a Subway napkin. Pretty classy, no?
But at least it gave me something to laugh about and allowed me to get the ugly cry under control. At this point, I started telling Mr. A that he could turn around now. I thought he was avoiding it in the hopes he would stop crying. It was like torture being so close to him but not being able to see his face.
He calmly replied that he would turn around if he could but Jason and Cicely told him to wait for them.
Oh photographers, why do you always know better than we do? Of course, you tell us when to turn around. Of course, we stand there in anticipation forever so you can get pictures, duh. Sometimes I forget that what’s displayed in a four photo montage takes minutes to actually shoot.
So if you are doing a first look, just remember you will stand like this for quite sometime before you can finally see each other. And yes, it’s one of the world’s most awful forms of torture
Then Jason and Cicely finally gave us the cue to turn around.
Look at the big dumb grin on my face. In the video, you can hear me scream, “You look so handsome.” Yes, I’m eternally embarrassed by that and no, I didn’t plan it. Trust me, I don’t plan on looking that goofy. It was just one of those natural, organic things that happened.
Then I finally got to steal the kiss I had been waiting 12+ hours for.
And I wiped away some more of Mr. A’s tears…sure would have been easier to use that hand embroidered hankie.
Then it was time to do the stereotypical dress spin.
Mr. A felt obliged to return the favor, which was nice because I had never seen him in his tux. I specifically asked him not to show it to me before the wedding.
And then in being the sweetheart that he is, Mr. A did what he does every day. He held my hands close and kissed them. I love how tightly his eyes are closed in the last picture, like he is just so thankful and so grateful.
In honor of that thanks, we decided to take a moment to praise God for the wonderful occasion.
We bowed our heads down and prayed one of the most sincere prays we have ever prayed.
Thanking God for blessing us so much.
Thanking God for allowing us to find one another.
Thanking God for our family and our friends.
Thanking God for this beautiful day and the opportunity to share it with so many people that we love.
Thanking God Mom Mom and Pop Pop watching from above.
With that, the seriousness was over. Mr. A couldn’t take it anymore.
He was burning up and he needed to dab his sweat.
I know, he is so romantical. It’s okay, it was like 90 degrees and we were both dying.
Then, he launched into some stereotypical Mr. A story, where all I could do was smile and laugh.
I’m sure he was apologizing for the hundredth time about not getting his hankie. And secretly, I wanted to beat him but all I could do was stare. He was so handsome standing there in his wedding tux. I seriously couldn’t do anything but stare in amazement. We were really here and he was really my groom. My dreams had finally come true.
Sadly enough, Jason and Cicely told us that they got all the shots they needed and it was time to head back, which apparently launched me into some story about holding my train.
And, of course, holding my hand.
I was sad to leave that sacred spot. We had just shared one of the most intimate and beautiful moments that a couple can ever share. I literally could have stood there all day joking and laughing with Mr. A. We were off in our own world.
But like everything in life, the moment had to end. Luckily enough, we were just getting started because up next was our photo session. We both couldn’t wait to see what crazy, creative things Cicely and Jason had come up with.
If you are considering a first look session, seriously what are you waiting for? It was one of the single best decisions we made in our wedding. I’ll never, ever forget those quite, beautiful moments I had with my husband. I’ll never forget how I could hear him crying when I finally placed my hand on his shoulder. I’ll never forget the face he made when he saw me for the first time. And I’ll never shake that feeling of how lucky and special I felt it that moment. Only some people are so lucky as to meet the love of their lives, much less marry them. I consider myself a very, very blessed woman.
Up Next:
Our Portrait Session
What You’ve Missed:
A Moment With My Grandmother
Bridal Portrait Session
Groom’s Portrait Session
Bouquet
That was like the sweetest first look ever!!
Thanks k
soo so beautfiul! I LOVE your dress, it's just perfect!
Thanks saying I do. I am still pretty obsessed with that dress ( Jim hjelm 8800). Totally worth blowing my budget
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That’s awesome. Wow!
In from SITS.
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Thanks Jen!
What wonderful pictures! I love the small and tender moments that were captured! Happy SITS day!
JDaniel4′s Mom recently posted..Needed Organizing- Laundry Room
Thank you. They are by far some of my favorite pictures.
That is hands down the best idea I have EVER heard of for a wedding! I absolutely LOVED looking at these pictures. Thank you for sharing them! Happy wedding, Happy SITS day, Happy life!

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Thank you. And thanks for dropping by. Some people definitely didn’t understand why we wanted to see each other beforehand but it was one of my favorite parts of the whole day.
I never heard of doing first look photos with just the two of you. What a neat idea! Happy sits Day!!
Thanks Tanya. Apparently it’s all the rage now
I live the idea of first look photos. How wonderful that you will have those memories to cherish.
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We truly cherish them. Thanks for stoping by co pilot mom!
OMG I’m bawling. So sweet!!
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Thanks Amy! What a cute picture!
Those are precious!!! My hubs and I didn’t do a first look but I wish now that we had’ve!
Visiting from SITS! =)
I say you just get married again
thanks for dropping by.
What a beautiful story, well captured. How lucky you are to have these memories recorded so that you can return and re-live the moment.
misssrobin recently posted..I Can Strengthen
Thanks Robin. Even a year later I find us still staring at the pictures.
*SNIFF*
This is such an incredibly beautiful post and I’m so happy you were able to share this sacred moment together before the actual wedding. If I ever get married, I would love to do this as well. It’s nice to be with the one you love–alone (well, with photographers, but mostly alone!)–before the craziness begins.
XOXO and happy SITS day!
Charlotte recently posted..Red flags that suggest you’re not that into him
You are too sweet Charlotte. I totally recommend everyone doing a first look.
I am sitting here at this computer crying with snot running down. Your gratitude is so humbling. Beautiful, beautiful story.
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I am sitting here at this computer crying with snot running down. Your gratitude is so humbling. Beautiful, beautiful story.
{sitsday}
Maggie S. recently posted..Let’s Salsa!
Thank you Maggie. Your comment is making me tear up. It’s such an honor to be described as humble.
And don’t you two look precious!
My wedding pictures were taken from my best friend’s iPod. Yours are better.
Classic NYer recently posted..On things that make me smile
Thanks. We owe it all to our fantastic wedding photographers and Photoshop
Oh I can feel the love in the beautiful photos! Congratulations on finding your true love. I that your marriage has inspired you to create a blog. Happy SITS Day!
Raquel recently posted..Easy Paint Chip Art
Thanks Raquel. It was hugely important to us that our wedding day captured our love. So touched to know that you can see it.
Wow. What gorgeous photos of a special moment!
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Thanks Katy!
Oh, I love the hanky and Subway napkin anecdote! Too funny! That’s the stuff memories are made of! And you are absolutely stunning!
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Thanks so much. I still give him a hard time about the hanky
I adore these photos. What beautiful memories you’ve captured.
Lisa Rae @ smacksy recently posted..Signs of Life
Thanks so much Lisa. And thanks for stopping by!
This is the most adorable post I have ever read. I won’t ever forget it. You guys are so precious and I love that you have these memories to keep forever! Happy SITS day!
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Thanks Chelsea. You are too sweet. You’ve got a pretty adorable family going on over there too
That first photo when Mr. A. started to cry touched my heart. His feelings came across as so real. He’s a keeper. Happy memories. Happy SITS day, and a happy life. We are working on forty years this December.
Sheila Skillingstead recently posted..Writing: Chapters and scenes
40 years what an inspiration. Congrats to you both. What an accomplishment.
That picture gets me every time too. I married the sweetest man alive
Absolutely GORGEOUS pics..and I love your dress!
Thanks so much Lisa! It was pricey but I don’t regret it for a second!
What a beautiful moment captured!! Stopping by from SITS…Happy SITS Day!!!

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Thanks so much Taylor. Thanks for dropping by!
What cute pictures! I love how you can tell the story through the photos.
Ellen recently posted..Hochzeit
Thanks Ellen! Our photographers did an amazing job!
Absolutely stunning! The photos are remarkable. Love the dress – the design, the fit, the style. Beautiful.
Happy SITS day!
Kerrie
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Thank you so much Kerrie! You are too sweet!
This post made me tear up! You two are so cute!!!
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Aww thanks Amanda. So glad you liked it.
What a beautiful way to capture your love, stopping by from SITS.
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Thanks so much Whitney!
Those are the most precious pictures ever. The photographer did an amazing job of capturing the emotion of that day.
Lisa recently posted..Summer Day
Thanks Lisa. Our photographers were/are amazing!
I’ve never even heard of a “first look” thingy. Wow! How beautiful. The occasion/feelings AND you two! Happy SITS day.
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Thanks Jean!
Oh, this is so so beautiful!! what wonderful captures of your first look! I’m so touched by how you both were crying…so wonderful. You can really see your love for each other! Congratulations! You made a beautiful bride!!! <3 Best wishes for your new life together!

Pamela recently posted..The Dress Shirt & Our Weekend in Pictures
Thanks so much Pamela. It means a lot to us that other people can see and feel our love.
What a great moment on your wedding day! I loved the post!
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Thanks so much Kim. So jealous you got to go to London!
The pictures look absolutely beautiful!!
Thanks Maddison!
Ok, so I’m in tears reading about this! Sooo sweet. I’m guessing we’ll have a similar series of photos (my groom is bound to shed some tears) on our wedding day just 5 weeks away. (Oh and I’m stopping by from SITS – congrats on your day!)
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Congrats Alicia! Enjoy your day and treasure the moments you have alone with your groom. Wishing you all the best!
{Cue tears} The photos, the dress, the moment it all makes me want to get married again. The sweetest {visiting from SITS}
Brook recently posted..A {School Daze} Sound Bytes of Week
Thanks so much Brook. Such a sweet comment.
I wish we would have done something like this for our first look! Such GREAT photos!
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Thanks Jamie!
You two look amazing, tears and all! Congratulations on two special days (one more special than the other, of course); your wedding day and your SITS Day!
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Thanks so much!